i will never be interesting enough for anyone to want to spend time with i will never be enough for anyone to like me or want me around and i will never even be pretty enough to be used as a useless fuck i hate how i am i am still so scared of sex the thought of someone being that close to me again makes my stomach feel sick because i know what they will think they will think about me and when i am with people i dont feel right i dont feel ok i feel bad and all i want to do is leave and when i leave all i want to do is die and i still dont feel right and i still dont feel ok and i still feel bad it doesnt change and i don’t trust the people that say they like me because they don’t even realise yet that they are lying but i know they are it has happened so many times and eventually they will too they always do ive learnt my lesson i wont let it happen again im sorry
bye
